Sigh. So Brian got laid off. I'm very frustrated trying to figure out how we are going to pay the bills with just my income. My boss is only giving me 2 days a week, when the other leads at my store are getting 4-5 days a week still. It's not fair. I work my butt off for my company and they repay me by giving me a whole 12 hours a week.

We have no health insurance, and we have medical bills up the wazoo. Medicaid won't cover us unless we pay them $2,500 a month because we make more than the salary cap. If we made the $4,000 they say we make a month, I guarantee you that we would not be living with my parents, scraping what little we can just to get by. I'd have my own place and be able to save a thousand bucks a month. Seriously...why do they have to make it so damn difficult for everyone?

I hate being in this predicament. I'm having a baby in a little over two months and instead of really being excited, I'm dreading how much the cost is going to be now. I'm praying that he isn't early and that he is healthy and that there will be no complications. I'm tired of people saying that "you should have waited until you had insurance." We weren't expecting to get pregnant when we did; it just happened. We weren't expecting all the complications and ER visit in the beginning, either. Don't get me wrong; I'm happy to be able to finally have my baby. It took us forever to get pregnant. It just seems that when something finally works out for us, crap happens to make our lives miserable. sigh. Sorry for complaining, I just needed to vent a little.

Busy

So yesterday was my baby shower for my family. Well, my side anyway. I got some pretty cool stuff. Amazingly, i didn't get one bottle or one binky. I got some clothes, and thankfully, they weren't all newborn size, so I have a decent variety to choose from up til he's a year. Of course I wll have to buy him lots more, but at least he has a decent start.

My Grandmother, my mom's mom, made him two cute quilts and some receiving blankets. I got a bunch of diapers, a baby bath and some toys and some baby care stuff.

What I really need to do is go buy him a baby book, or go buy the stuff to make him a baby book for his first year. I wanted to get it started before he was born...yeah...that is likely not going to happen. I just have so much to do. Becca's wedding next week, transferring to a new store the week after that, Bri's family shower the week after that, friend shower the week after that, then there will only be 4 weeks til he is born...eep! the last bit is going by so fast.

I was going through some of my pictures and backing them up and stuff, when I found these. They are from last September when Kim went to Logan. She is moving back in a few weeks. This was actually the last "vacation," if I can really call it that, that Brian and I had. If I werren't pregnant, I'd tell him we needed to go somewhere soon. It is nice to get away and do something fun, but right now, I don't know if I really feel like going anywhere.

I have already forgotten the original reason I wanted to post something today, so I guess it wasn't that important. My sisters and I planned my baby shower yesterday and I am pretty excited about that. After the baby is born, My sister in law is going to take some generational photos for us. Brian still has his Great grandparents alive and its not often you get to see 5 generations and I think that would be something really special for Spencer to have one day. I think I may ask my sis in law to take some pictures of him at the hospital for me too. I want to start my kid's photo album with some nice pictures.

In fact, I need to start taking pictures of my belly now that i'm finally starting to show. I don't really want them done, but I think that I will be sad someday to not have them. I've got so many things on my to do list before the baby comes. I don't think I'll get around to it all. I'm going to be so busy this summer...we have my baby shower, Becca's wedding, 2 other baby showers, Mother's day and Father's day, July 4 and a billion family birthdays...oi.

This is the set we got. Everything matches it. I think it's adorable. I was going to get little elephants, but they were on clearance and by the time we had the money, they were gone.

Lazy Days

I have been feeling so lazy lately. I just don't feel like getting anything done, but i have to. I'm going to try to get our room moved around so we can fit Spencer's crib and stuff in there with us. I still need to by some crin bedding, but its so wicked expensive, I'm wondering of it would be cheaper to make my own? It costs almost as much for a baby bedding set as a king size bedding set. Ridiculous! I am 26 weeks on Thursday, and I can feel the little guy moving all the time. sometimes it drives me crazy; I feel like he's punching my stomach and my bladder simultaneously, but i sure do like to feel him moving around. I can't believe I am almost into my third trimester. It has gone by so fast. I have bought his stroller and car seat, as well as a bouncer and a playpen. His "theme" is monkeys. I've bought him some clothes too, but I am not sure how much more to buy because I am not sure what I will be getting for my showers. I suppose you can never have too much baby stuff. I would like to buy him a swing, but they are really expensive, too. Babies R Us wanted almost $2oo for the one that matched the set we bought. What I really should be buying is diapers and wipes and stuff to stock up. one of these days, if I un-lazy myself and figure out how to use the scanner, I will put up my ultrasound pictures. Until next time...

Just doing a little catching up :)

Ok. I apparently have tons of pictures on my computer that I need to go through and put on disks... these are just from when we went to the basin for grandpas funeral.

And I thought we got lots of snow? This was when we had no snow here. Very glad I'm not living in the basin. That's gotta be at least 5-6 inches, or more.

It was, at least, a nice view up a path that is usually a nice walk, when it isn't covered in snow. Stupid white stuff.

Our hotel room at the Springfield suites in Vernal. Very classy. Probably the fanciest hotel I have ever stayed in.

He hates it when I get his picture when he isn't expecting it. Bwa ha ha. There is a reason I take the pictures...

This is my grandmother saying goodbye to my grandfather. I was surprised that I caught it with all my aunts milling about like crazies...

And last, a morbid picture that my mother actually requested. Its the last photo of my granddad, obviously, but it creeps me out a little bit to tell you the truth. I have a great photo of him at Christmas in his old Marines uniform, but search as I might, i can't find it anywhere. I'm very saddened by that.

In other news, we went to the new Pizza Stop in Magna last night with Becca and Steven, and Toni and Bekah. It was fun, even though we had to leave early because brian had to work early this morning. It is always nice to get out and hang out with friends. Its a rare treat for me because it seems that my friends are always so busy. :)

At the end of next month, I will be starting my 6th month of pregnancy. It has actually gone by rather fast. I'm glad to be past the scary stage and I really enjoy being able to feel my baby move and stuff. I'm excited to buy baby stuff this month when we get our taxes back. I think it will be awesome.

I also have a bunch of pictures of all my latest craft projects. I will update those on a day I am off work, as it will be a very lengthy blog, I am sure. i really need to get my pictures printed and start working on my wedding book and stuff again. I feel so far behind. I get started and then it takes me forever to finish. I was hoping to be caught up before Spencer is born, but I don't really see that happening anytime soon.

Work is going well for now. My boss is really wanting to quit, but she wants to wait for a while before she does. They are saying that Sam's may not resign our contract next year in March, so I am going to see if I can find a new job by the time I get back from maternity leave. If not, the Manager at Sam's in Murray is the same one that hired me in provo and he will give me a job there making almost what i make now. Thankfully, I was smart enough to work well in college. :)

Um, I think that is really all that I have to say. I'll try to update again on Tuesday. I'm making pink lemonade cupcakes. I'm curious to see how they turn out.

Lots of Catching up to do

My granddad, Ervin Larsen, died on the 27th of February. He had been battling prostate cancer for over 9 years. We had to drive out just past vernal to Tridell, where he was buried. Tridell is a little hick town that you can drag main street in less than 5 minutes walking. it is where my grandmother and my mother grew up.

Grandpa got a 21 gun salute at his graveside service because he spent time in the marines. He was actually on one of the boats in france at D-Day.

His favorite soda was mountain dew. We were naughty grandchildren. We used to sneak it to him even though he wasn't supposed to have it. In our hotel room after the funeral, we toasted my grandfather with a lot of mountain dew. The mortuary even let each grandkid put a can of mountain dew in his casket. That was well over 100 cans. :)

I will miss him, but I'm glad I was able to see him and visit him at the very end. He was the last og my granddads to die.

In other news, Brian and I found out that we are having a boy. We are going to name him Spencer Tyler. I am excited, and I hope that all goes well with the rest of my pregnancy.